Friday, April 15, 2005

Blog Untitled

HELLO, my wiggers. Life hasn't sucked so much lately, and for once, I'm feeling happy. As pathetic as this sounds, I think I can accredit that to DDR Ultramix. I get a lot better every time I play, and for the past two days, I've played for over two hours at a time. I guess I'm also feeling better because I'm finally finished with those four fucking long term projects I had (I'm already on my second try at this whole sophomore thing, so I'm trying not to go for a third time). I suppose my biggest problem at school is obeying the "authority". 5 out of 7 of my teachers are under the age of 26. How can I respect them? Oh well..... I just wanted to post something for the sake of posting it. A little update on my life, I guess.

"....today was great! I had pizza for lunch with my friends. I'm going to go kill myself now...."

P.S.: Sorry if my blog's website is acting retardedd. My old Portland server is acting up on me. If you're reading this, my attempt at switching to blogspot worked.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Maybe bliss isn't so bad...

I've always been told all my life that ignorance is bliss. You can interpret this as one of two ways: One is that ignorance is some hedonistic sin that we must overcome; the other is that ignorance is an important part of true happiness. All my life, I've stuck with the first interpretation. As I've said before, you can waste your entire life trying to find greater meaning, and get yourself absolutely nowhere. It's good to ask "Why?", but some things just can't be answered. The meaning of existence can not be understood by humans, much less in human terms. Our constantly developing science and technology can investigate things deeper, but it can't discover everything. It never will, either. The simple fact that we as humans are finite in every way alone means that we can't understand what is infinite. We can throw everything we have at the question, and still will end up with nothing but more questions and half-assed explanations. The only way to comprehend something infinite is to be infinite, and that would imply that you already know everything, because you are everything. Sound familiar? It should, because it is the Christian concept of "God." The omniscient creature who promotes kindness, charity, and compassion. It is my belief that the concept of a God is genius. It gives people motivation for something bigger, something which we can't comprehend, and something that is an ultimate good. It is just a human term to describe that which is indescribable. What exactly does it motivate us to do? It motivates us to be the kindest, most charitable and compassionate humans we can possible be. My only problem with all faiths is that none of them are entirely correct. Take Catholicism for example: It precisely follows my description of God, but the problem is that it gets caught up in the details. Jesus Christ was the greatest prophet, in a sense. He was a man who lived long ago, and had a very acute understanding of God. He went out and preached it because it was so important to him, but the people to whom he preached wanted to worship him as the savior of man. I believe that he, being human, probably accepted this and agreed with it. The problem here is that Catholicism gets caught up in the details so much that there is not nearly enough emphasis on the fundamental belief of the concept of a higher being. The thing I find interesting about most of the major religions is that all the major ones believe in a God who is kind, charitable, and compassionate, most have a form of worship (essentially an expression of hope, the special ability that makes us human), and most have saviors, which are essentially people who have strong followings and stand strong for the faith they represent. What inspired me towards this type of thinking is a movie called "Groundhog's Day." (click here for automatic local TV listing search) In this movie, Bill Murray played a character who was stuck reliving Groundhog's Day beginning at 6:00AM, and keeping his memory from each last reliving. No matter what he did, he couldn't escape it. Eventually, after getting to know the day very well, he finally cracked and drove a car off of a cliff. He then realized that he couldn't kill himself. In the end, by doing everything he could to make the world a better place in a day, he finally was free from this cycle. He not only was free, but he had gotten the girl he wanted, as well. It made me think: A human who is omniscient has no purpose; he is merely trapped in his infinite knowledge. Perhaps this is the reason why we are not omniscient. We are individuals with limited skills and abilities, and must co-exist to survive. The best way to do this is to try and follow the characteristics of "God," which very simply are kindness, charity, and compassion. If we mimic these characteristics and all live in true equality, then maybe we will fulfill our purpose, and maybe we will achieve our heaven, our eternal bliss, or whatever you may call it. At the very least, we will make our world a happier place to live. To those who do decide to seek meaning for things that are beyond human, I wish you the best of luck. Finally, keep in mind that in essence, this philosophy only asks that you maintain virtues of kindness, charity, and compassion, contribute to the best of your ability while remaining happy, and most importantly, keep motivated by the hope for something beyond comprehension.

I may elaborate more on this in later posts. If my mind keeps churning the way it has been, I may have enough material to write a 500 page book (no exaggeration there). As for now, I guess I'll just leave it as the messy attempt at explanation that it is. The biggest problem I have is that certain concepts are sometimes hard to word...

"I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." -Donnie Darko

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Ditching LiveJournal

YES! I'm finally getting rid of that livejournal piece of crap that cramps my style. Any future posts that would be on my live journal will now be here, on my own site. I'll also try to keep this one more frequently updated...